Mixtape is argued to be fake nostalgia. Chuuni Doll's Teenage Wasteland is an unadulterated hit of the real shit. These are the sounds of my wasted youth, all prior to graduation and a girlfriend.
Side A: Teenage Wasteland. Songs I could take home to my parents. Many are their fault. The rest are largely Apple Inc.'s.
I listened to a lot of music poring over things like the 3rd Edition Dungeon Master's Guide, Game Boy Secret Codes 3, and Game Developer magazine, imagining other worlds that never came to pass.
Country came from one side of the family that I'm now estranged from, but it is not all Toby Keiths.
All the weight of existence can crush a boy's dying innocence. Fortunately I stopped being a boy about it.
Fun to sing along to especially when you don't quite know what the words mean yet.
Carter and Grammer were the first concert I actively pushed to go to, way out at a tiny little podunk cafe 50 miles from home. D's music had a profound impact on my taste, my lyrical sensibilities, and my spirituality and gender. She was taken from us far too soon.
I used to have a vertical CD player with a pair of speakers. I'd lie on the floor next to them and draw or design video games to the music. I wish I'd had support in those hobbies.
I saw these guys at the Anchorage Performing Arts Center with my family once. We picked up all their CDs.
I was an elitist prick about listening to 'classic rock' over boy bands at the turn of the millennium, so this became my heartache anthem later and ugh, fuck if it doesn't still hit a little.
this is literally because i watched the tomb raider movie and had a crush on angelina jolie in it
Okay so this technically fits better on side B but it isn't quite as dark as most of those. I would listen to it a lot during air travel; it has a sense of whirling speed that was new to me.
One time a classmate quoted a Strong Bad Email at me and I had no idea what he was talking about, so we spent lunch in the computer lap watching what is now considered "early Homestar Runner". And that's how I got into They Might Be Giants because the world is dumb.
Actually slightly anachronistic as I didn't get into this tune until adulthood, but this fits the chuunibyou theme better than "One Bourbon, One Scotch, One Beer".
Have I mentioned how much of my childhood I spent romanticizing being a starving artist, an itinerant wanderer, a hitch-hiker, wandering from town to town in the contiguous US with nothing but an instrument and the clothes on my back?
i'm eliding a few steps here but, so, i had a crush on a girl in high school and after she turned me down she loaned me this album. baby says i'm tearing her down
Get crit by nostalgia, idiot, or something.
Side B: Chuuni Doll's. The tracks I got from the Internet, and my own investigations into the wider world, unsupervised by any kind of responsible adult. I fell into chiptunes and trackers because of Introversion Software and started looking up the demosceners they used music from.
I'm not going to pretend I had good taste in rap as a 15 year old white American.
lol copyright
My parents' divorce did not go well.
I was also a big stupid hipster about not listening to hip-hop. Once I had to take the bus, I got exposed to a lot more of it and it slowly took that no it's fine actually. OutKast helped a lot with that.
some things are inevitable, motherfuckers
I spent a lot of time in the Boy Scouts exposed directly to the most respectable of the Christofascism in this godawful country. Fortunately, the Internet inoculated me. Unrelated, I later became a Discordian because, as a minor, I had no way to send the payment for ordainment in the Church of the SubGenius.
For a brief period, I ran a forum RPG that was essentially a mashup of Golden Sun and Deus Ex. It is gone now, thankfully. One guy who was part of it, that I met playing Magic over the internet, sent me a song by this band his older sister was into but he didn't really care for himself, called ThouShaltNot. This event triggered a fault line of falling dominos in my psyche that led to discovering industrial music, LiveJournal, and BitTorrent.
ThouShaltNot were labelmates with the Crüxshadows once. I don't respect the latter much anymore but once upon a time I greatly esteemed their extremely stereotypical goth stylings.
Similarly, I wish Emilie Autumn was still actually releasing music instead of apparently having back-and-forth drama with her online fanbase for the last 20 years. That's nothing to do with me, though. Instead I just found this fae spacepop album with inflections of industrial and classical and a hairstyle on the cover very similar to one I'd given my first ever female OC years prior. Which could have meant nothing.
more teenage heartache. i was a miserable, antisocial high schooler who spent nearly every free moment with my iPod earbuds in
I discovered pornography when I was, like, 12. The one time I forgot to clear my browser history I got a chewing-out so thorough I ensured never to discuss sex in my parents' presence ever again. Instead I turned to independent research on the Internet, which slowly led me to various strange and potentially quite concerning kinks, but ultimately my sexuality became the first part of my personality that actually felt my own, rather than being something I had inflicted on me by my parents' failed ambitions and personal tastes. I think that's why I still hold to so much of it; it was the first time I built my own personality.
Anyway like a decade later I finally learned what HRT was, because the part I left out in the flowery description was that porn was the first time I learned women could also have penises, but not how.
For weird reasons I got into NIN in reverse, partially because Trent made so much hay out of being against the music industry from 2007-2010.
Fun fact I can't attribute this properly at all! I found it on LimeWire once upon a time and it was one of the first electronic songs I ever heard.
How my Alice in Wonderland infatuation started.
How it's going.